Today is Elise's Birthday! 🎉 Happy Birthday to my main, my queen, my wife, my spider lady~ 🕷🕸

watching this today has such a profound and different effect on me I experienced NHK for the first time when I was a rather pessimistic / hopeless person. It resonated with me because at the time I too was a hikkikomori, with little to no aspirations aside from the very light musical work I was doing Working a dead end job, barely affording rent, staying in a tiny apartment with no posters or decorations on my walls, being reluctant to meet new people, suicidal ideation, in the process of dropping out of college... it was kind of hell 😅 But in all of this animes hopelessness, there was a weird if almost spiteful ray of light that gave me a very strange sense of hope Currently, I'm in another strange "Hikkikomori Chapter" of my life, where even though my bills are being met, I find myself very lost and unable to create. It's strange, even though I've built a great thing with music, it does feel like there is no future ahead for me. Like I've stagnated and my fate has been sealed. However, much like Satou-kun's transformation from a hikkikomori to a "good enough" working class citizen, I am working towards a point where I can continue to work on projects and make music in spite of feeling like my world is slowly ending. If content has been at an all time low, I apologize! I don't want to quit music, just in a very deep and long lull musically. I have confidence i can bounce back, I think i just need a little more time to gather myself again and find something, or a feeling, that's worth writing about. Cause anything else would just be half assed, and we both can hear it in my work. That's the last thing I want to do. To all those that have stuck around, kept your subscriptions active in spite of my lack of music, and have supported me, there is a level of thank you and appreciation i think you will never know that I have for you, and I simply cannot thank you enough. Here's to hoping we can all fight and defeat our "NHK", and I hope to make more music soon

my phones wallpaper and the YouTube video i was watching turned into a mega curse 😭

HUGE find at @TsumiCon last weekend! Always love finding my senpai @Victim_Girls work at conventions~ Thanks @FAKKU for printing this 💪

never preordered something so fast in my life Asanagi senpai, I love your work so much! ❤️

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my eroge senpai @Victim_Girls has blessed me with another beautiful lady~ 🌸🌸🌸

mods, grant this guy immortality and throw him in the oubliette until universal heat death

what came first tho, the baby or the goo goo gaga?

so nice to catch up with you @ProjektMelody ✨️❤️🍑

my "Tsundere Healer" in Aion 2 she's very short! 💢

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Not sure how much more shit Distrokid has to do before my friends leave them for good Can ya'll please stop using DK and just move to Symphonic already 💀

I had @MiffyyCoded make my Aion 2 character and im over the moon 🌙 ✨️

Ok this Aion game kinda tea tho 👀

Kinda all over the place, but these are still some of my all time favs