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💬: yudianqiu high emotional intensity 🆑: our show tends to be emotionally intense. we seem to have very few scenes with low emotional intensity. we never really have those moments when we’re completely emotionally stable. the most emotionally stable we get is when we’re unstable—the one thing we’re most consistent about is being emotionally unstable. yudianqiu 😂

261107 | cheng lei update his weibo with the happy ending version of the lament of autumn where everyone is “alive” with yu changxuan, ye pingjun and their two kids. 🍁💌 “𝙞’𝙢 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙙, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞’𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠.” — yu changxuan through the thin gauze curtains, whispers mingled. as the curtains lifted, the sound of a small hammer lightly cracking walnuts could be heard. following the sound downstairs, I expected my mother to greet me first. “oh, our young master is finally up!” it was qixuan, grinning—her words flowed like a kite out of control, requiring my sisters and sisters-in-law to gently quell her chatter. only my mother could keep her in check. if shes a boy, she would be as “annoying” as boren. i sat on the sun-drenched sofa. this morning, i had only felt thirsty, chug two glasses of water, and hadn't eaten anything. “drnk slowly,” my fourth sister said. “brother gu!” qixuan called out. “can you stop startling us? the people upstairs aren’t awake yet,” i said. “wu ge, there's no need to rush to headquarters. the commander-in-chief hasn't arrived yet,” ruitong said. “where’s dad?” i asked. “you have the nerve to say that? he’s still asleep. he’s usually such an early riser. if you and your older brother hadn’t persuaded your father to drink yesterday, would he still be sleeping?” mother said. then let’s just go out later. “ruitong, it’s going to rain tonight. remember to bring an umbrella if you go out with changxuan,” fourth sister said. “don’t worry,” ruitong nodded. “brother li!” qixuan called again. “yu qixuan!” i glared at her. “wu shao, if you ask me, let’s not go today. it looks like the commander-in-chief won’t sober up anytime soon. let’s go to the xiangxi hotel for a couple of rounds, then go horseback riding for a while, and then I’ll book…” boren didn’t finish. “you guys have fun, i’m going back to sleep a bit more,” i said. “this, this, this…” “don’t say ‘this,’ let’s go,” ruitong pulled him. “it’s been so long since we played together. i just want to relax…” i went upstairs, my knees and ankles struggling, my feet grinding the ground. i put the wooden toy gun and storybook on the bedside table. i lay on my right side, gazing absently into the distance. i used to say this bed was big, but now it seemed just right. pingjun, with one arm around each of the two children, slept soundly. i watched for a while, but couldn't fall asleep. perfect, I'll make some breakfast before they wake up. as i reached to lift the covers, i found xiao yuer clutching my sleeve. i gently kissed him and got up. “can't sleep?” mother asked. “make breakfast.” “you're making those chicken soup dumplings again?” “yes, I'll make them more often, trying to get them as good as lao zhengxing.” “go on, go on, my son's cooking is getting better and better. they'll be gaining weight for winter this year!” mother laughed. “i wonder when we'll be able to enjoy that kind of food,” fourth sister teased. their laughter made the jade hairpin flowers by the window sway slightly. “wu ge, the kitchen is over there. where are you going? are you still asleep?” qixuan asked. “i’m going to check if the maple leaves have turned red, then I'll be right back.” #thelamentofautumn 🍁 #chenglei

261106 | cheng lei’s team xhs update 📽️ “the emotions hidden in his eyes...🥀” #thelamentofautumn 🍁 #chenglei

the lament of autumn amazing call back | it turns out many old scenes had already foreshadowed the ending 🍂 » “we met in the temple in our youth. the first note she left me said; "the body and flesh returns to earth; true feelings never fade"—i didn’t understand back then. it turned out those words had long foretold. the ending where i sacrifice myself for my country, my bones returning to the mountains and rivers.” » “the story had just begun. the hosta flower i casually picked up was the beginning of all the ups and downs of my life but in the end of my life, i tried with all my might, yet could never touch it again.” » “once, in the dressing room at a banquet i forced kiss her; she was utterly unwilling. after all the twists and turns, she finally took the initiative to kiss my scar. i savored this long-awaited sweetness unaware that the time we had together was actually running out.” » “that night at fengtai i joked with a smile, asking her if she had scissors hidden under her pillow. i thought it was just a joke never knowing that the later she had really considered killing me.” » “pingjun bite my finger twice. once with bone-deep hatred, once with tender love. hatred and love, two extremes both fell heavily upon me.” » “i witnessed ye pingjun desperately attempting suicide in the bathroom. later, she suddenly left without saying goodbye. i rushed into the bathroom without thinking. at that moment, what i feared most was losing her again.” » “on that snowy night long ago, we said goodbye, gazing at each other from afar. we both felt that fate had brought us together, but we weren’t meant to be; there was no need to force it. then, the day after we consummated our marriage, once again we gazed at each other from afar. we had long since resolved to stay together until old age. back then, i still wholeheartedly believed that, from then on, we truly could stay together for a long time.” » “when i was shooting for dolls at the night market, i seemed to see again the younger me sculpting clay figures. that boy who had not yet been swept up in the chaos of the times. turns out he has always been within me.” » “the year i was 22, i deliberately “bumped into” pingjun at the bookstore making her both angry and flustered and even fell to the ground with her in my arms. the year i was 36, searching for her. we met amid an explosion. i shielded her, holding her as we fell together. back then, i was just glad to have another chance to protect her not knowing there would be many days ahead.” » “the last battle of our lives dad said, since i was a kid until i grew up, i was always being his pride. but i probably wasn't a “good father”, i can’t watch my son grow up—"good night, xiao yuer..."” » “i used to love teasing her and asking her to say my name. she wouldn’t say it so easily. as i lay dying on the battlefield, explosions roared deafeningly all around. but the sound of her calling my name was especially clear. was it a dream?”

the lament of autumn director said: “i hope that after everything is over, when you look back at yu changxuan, you’ll see a difference from your first impression. a brave man, full of ambition and fearlessness, walking the path of protecting the country and saving the people.”