Vyvanse + monster + Tron Legacy soundtrack has me working these Excel spreadsheets like a monster. It’s wild how unstoppable and focused I feel with this medication.

Boxy irl

It took me a while to realize playing Moira is a trap. The definition of stat inflation. One could say that same logic is the exact reason there are so many delusional Rivals players. Stat padding frying those dopamine receptors For that part of the Rivals population: Stat inflation is when the scoreboard rewards how much you did instead of whether it mattered. Damage, heals, elims — all the volume numbers go up, your brain gets the hit, and you stop asking if any of it actually won fights. The numbers become proof you did your job so you never have to look at why the team still lost. Those scoreboard screenshots across rivals twitter mean essentially nothing.

I feel shattered into a million pieces and I’m trying to find the parts that are me. I won’t be interacting on here for a little bit or with people in general.

He said “who want smoke? I got big lungs and a full automatic”

Real af

Creators with a platform big enough to pay bills have a responsibility they keep ignoring. When someone gets called out for griefing a tournament for content, the response is immediate insults (“P_retard,” “shut the fuck up,” “get the fuck off my dick”), open admission of farming the other player because he’s “an asshole,” and an explicit “I would do it again.” The facts get buried under the performance. The same pattern shows up across the space: escalate first, justify the behavior as content or the other person being worse, treat the reaction as authenticity. This isn’t harmless. People of different ages and impulse control watch this and treat it as a model. Public displays of that style validate the same reactivity in ranked, in chats, and in smaller circles. The community already has enough toxicity, racism complaints, tournament drama, and throwing issues. Adding more of the same from people who can actually make a living off the game makes it worse, not better. Having an audience that supports you is something to be grateful for. It doesn’t give permission to act like a child because the algorithm rewards it. Set a better example. The pattern is clear and it’s not helping the scene improve.

Why are there so many Rivals creators that have a defensive style to engagement farm and spread toxicity while claiming to be against it. It’s the same pattern over and over again. Especially that Entei dude. High-reactivity aggression mixed with selective justification. It generates engagement and pushes back on accusations, but it escalates toxicity, prioritizes content over competition, and weakens accountability. The toxicity in the community is never going away when that sort of behavior is the norm and rewarded.

Thoughts? (Not my nails, but this is what I showed my nail tech I wanted) Getting a mani pedi 🧘 gotta treat yo self

Eldian loves watching my play Ghost of Yotei. He gets excited when he sees me pet the different animals, especially the wolves.

There’s so many mutuals I want to ask to play Rivals with but the audhd + RSD makes me too shy