Goony 🦘 🇦🇺 VTuber

Good excuse to finally talk about things. Where I started and where I am now. > Be me with no clue what I want to do having finished school and always struggled > Forced into Uni by parents and do double degree in Marketing/Psychology > Struggle through it, working twice as hard to achieve the bare minimum but manage to graduate > Work in Marketing for 5 years with no motivation and just aimlessly doing my routine > Discover Vtubers, become a mod in the Hololive Fan discord > Hear about first HoloEN auditions in 2020. Make application with zero experience > Make it through 3 interviews with CoverCorp and get accepted into Wave 1 of HoloStarsEN > Unfortunate corporate bureaucracy cancels first Wave of HoloStarsEN, I’m put on hold but told I’m guaranteed a spot when they finally launch > Motivated by making it so far I start as an indie to get experience before joining HoloStarsEN > Become Goonyella, throw myself into a new and scary world of Vtubing. I never even had a Facebook before let alone a Twitter > Work Fulltime in Marketing while Streaming 5 days a week > Meet lots of cool people and make lots of friends > Meet lots of crazy people and lost lots of friends > Somehow make Twitch partner with support from my friends and community > Best day of my life > 2022 HoloStarEN Wave 1 Auditions open up finally. Go through 3 interview again as a formality with CoverCorp. > Talk about my new venture in Vtubing, how I want to bring Twitch and Youtube audience together and remove the stigma and baseless red vs purple mind set of Holofans. > They did not like that.jpg > Told I will no longer be part of HoloStarsEN Wave 1 > Dreams crushed but I am still privillaged enough to have a full time job and security > Keep streaming 5 days a week, working full time > Make some good choices and steady growth > Make some bad choice and many mistakes > Lose my job > Realise how much of my life I have put on hold, how much I have neglected my friends and families, missed weddings and baby showers to stream > Fall into deep depression for a year and sporadically stream > Take indefinite hiatus from streaming > Try to learn from my mistakes but not getting better > Finally pursue professional help > Get diagnosed with Autisim and ADHD at 31 years old > Get medicated for ADHD > Omg why is everything suddenly so much easier and I am motivated to actually help myself now?! > Trying to come to terms with my diagnosis and not feel like I have wasted my life > Work on myself and do lots of reading and research > Find new job, indefinite hiatus from streaming to focus on it > Excel at new job, keep battling imposter syndrome > Go into first year performance review expecting to be told I need to do better > Get told they think I am extremely capable and promote me to Senior Marketing Manager > Still think I am lucking out, failing upwards and they just don’t notice > Have a cancer scare that luckily turns out to just require some surgery (Crohn’s Disease) > Realise life is too short. > I don't hate my job but I don't like it > I know what I want to do now > Going back to Uni next year and pursuing a Masters of Clinical Psychology > I want to help people like I was

The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts. Always remember to gaslight yourself into an awesome life.

Yippie.

Thinking about Withering Boon.

Lets break down this cognitive dissonance. 1. The Reality: They had a completely normal interaction with a person in DMs, engaging with them as a friend they could enjoy making jokes with. 2. The Bias: New information is revealed, their internal biases tell them "I am not supposed to have normal, safe interactions with this category of person." 3. The Defense Mechanism: Instead of reflecting and updating their worldview to realise "Oh, this category of people are just normal people I can get along with." they protect their prejudice by trying to retrospectively erase reality. They claim they were tricked or that the interaction never should have happened because admitting the interaction was normal would be admitting their bigotry.

I am glad I was too young and dumb to actually understand how to play Pokémon when I collected. These have just been sitting in an old binder.

It’s not my fault everyone runs only 4 basic land in Modern. I swear I’m not evil, I just don’t want to buy fetch lands.

Valve does not actively lock third party games to Steam with exclusive financial deals. Epic though, often pays developers for storefront exclusivity, locking those games into a social walled wasteland.

I miss streaming. I miss my friends.

This was really hard and there were a lot I still wanted to include. I’m old. Holo best btw.

Really glad I picked one of these up before getting excruciating lower back nerve pain. What do I play next?

Well I just got my first case of sciatica. This might be the changing point in my life where I go to the gym to get a 6 pack. I never want to experience this again, lower back pain is no joke. I’m stuck in bed.

I didn’t know Drifter was a Vtuber.

If you go on a date and they are not impressed by your autistic rizz as you rant about Warhammer for 4hrs then they aren’t right for you.

Rate my fridge.