Gwaine

to those asking me to reach out or talk to someone: i have. i’m tired of pushing people to a breaking point. i’m tired of people leaving me because i’m too much to handle. i don’t want to do this anymore. i’ll be okay. just think of it as me choosing to dream forever

i tried making an archive of my art throughout the years, though apparently there’s a limit to how much you can tweet a day. @NotLinkymew

i’ll be working on the project. i’ll tag the account it’s hosted on once im done

tonight.

i know i’m going to have another episode tomorrow. i’m sorry in advance. i think i may die.

i hate work because it means i have to actually be concious for 6 hours. like i have to use my brain and can’t just distract myself.

i’ve torn out most my eyebrows

i don’t want to die

i’m evil i’m evil

im a genuinely evil person and someone needs to take me out.

i genuinely did everything i was supposed to do. i’m so tired of talking to people only for them to leave because my problems are persistent.

i genuinely think my friends are trying to kill me at this point. this feels intentional— this feels like they want me to die. they keep triggering me, keep escalating and then get upset with me when i get deeper into an episode.

people will be against ableism until you have a destructive episode that lasts more than a few hours.

people don’t want to help those whose mental illnesses display as destructive. you’re hurt that i think you want me gone, but im ripping my hair out believing it. i’m not choosing to believe you hate me, but i analyze every action and come to think it against my will.

uhh guys my copy of the new warrior cats game looks weird …

accidental trans affirmation?