🩵May A.W🩵

I feel like people forgot what "englot is real" really meant all those years. I've been here watching engfa fall for a "straight" girl through livestreams, the "no chance" live, the awkward months after, the not-so-subtle acts of jealousy, the times they weren't on speaking terms, the sulking over nothing, the times they were seeing or talking to other people, the moment charlotte realised her feelings weren't so platonic after all, the moment engfa decided it wasn't the right time for them. All the ups and downs, the good and the bad moments, everything was real and everything defined what englot is which was NEVER a GL product. That came later, when the industry needed a bigger audience to sell their bond. For me, being in this fandom has always been about watching two beautiful, talented and good-hearted women grow around each other surrounded by a toxic environment that destroys before questions have been answered. It was never about expecting the girls to fulfil my expectations as a shipper. You can try to picture one as the villain and the other as the victim, but I know better. I was here for all of it. Whatever happened, the bond was real, the feelings were real and I'll never hold them accountable for how they choose to live their lives, together or apart. It has never been my place and never will be.