god, i can't believe i've done this to myself. please don't leave me man, let me apologize. please.. there must still be time..

i'll never get to apologize to the only person that has ever cared for me, the only person that has ever understood me or enjoyed my company. or even shown me an ounce of respect. i guess he put up with me for far too long anyway.

i understand.. just like everything, you're not real. i'm being lied to.. i should've known. i'm able to talk for once, speak my mind. that only happens in my head. it's not fair. why me? why, god? why does this have to be me. please, just tell me the truth.

this fucking freak omg