Lover of my husband, God, my cats, coffee, tacos, red pandas, otters, and pup pups. Celebrating imperfection. Participating in life & mental health awareness.

St Louis, MO
Joined July 2009
“Grief doesn't have to be quiet when the love was that loud.”
The most unforgettable thing I’ve ever witnessed at a funeral wasn't in a speech. Right as they began carrying my grandfather away, my grandmother suddenly broke through the crowd, rushed toward him, and yelled with the widest smile: "Best adventure of my life! Thank you!" She didn't look like a grieving widow. For a split second, she looked like a girl waving off the love of her life at a train station—no polite silence, just pure celebration of sixty years together. Every late August, when the afternoon heat haze takes over the sky, that moment is all I picture. Grief doesn't have to be quiet when the love was that loud.
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Kitty!
New cat alert! A call from a wildlife sanctuary about a "weird cat" has led to the first new cat species discovered in over 100 years in Bolivia’s Yungas forest ecoregion. Learn more about this feline surprise: on.natgeo.com/JRuaGj
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Humbled by this gift that I did not know had been given. Thank you!
Nine months after September 11, a village in Kenya with no electricity, no running water, and no roads gave America the most valuable thing it had. Fourteen cows. This is not a joke. It is one of the most serious gifts this country has ever received. Kimeli Naiyomah grew up in Enoosaen, a Maasai village near the Tanzanian border. His family was so poor they owned no cattle. Among the Maasai, that is the bottom. A family without cows is barely counted as a family. At fourteen he ran away to a school where the lessons were held under a tree. He walked. He had no shoes, no books, no money. He asked to be let in anyway. Years later he was a student at Stanford, in California, studying to be a doctor. On September 11, 2001, he happened to be in New York City. He watched the towers fall. He was a Maasai warrior. Warriors are trained from childhood to run toward danger. He wanted to run to the pile. He could not help there. He did not know what to do with what he had seen. Months later he went home to Enoosaen. The elders had heard something on the radio. Vaguely. A place called New York. Buildings. Some of them had not heard at all. Nobody in the village had ever seen a skyscraper. Nobody had been on an airplane. The idea of a building a hundred stories tall, full of thousands of people, falling down, was not something the language had words for. Kimeli sat with them and explained. Slowly. What a tower was. How many people. What it looked like when it came down. He told them what he had seen with his own eyes. The elders listened. When he finished, one of them asked a question. "What can we do for these poor people?" Kimeli had already decided. He had saved money in America. He wanted to buy a cow, the first cow his family had ever owned, and he wanted to give it to the United States. To the Maasai, a cow is not livestock. A cow is life. It is wealth, food, standing, survival. An elder explained it to a reporter in one sentence. A cow is the handkerchief we Maasai use to wipe away tears. Kimeli asked the elders for their blessing to give his one cow to America. Then, one by one, the elders stood up. They wanted to give too. In the end, fourteen families pledged fourteen cows. In a community of about ten thousand people who owned almost nothing else. On June 3, 2002, the United States chargé d'affaires in Kenya, William Brencick, traveled to Enoosaen. A flight, then more than half a day by road across terrain that barely counts as road. When he arrived, hundreds of Maasai in red robes were waiting. Some held hand-lettered banners. "To the people of America, we give these cows to help you." The elders presented the fourteen cows. Brencick accepted them on behalf of the United States. He called it the highest expression of regard and sympathy. Then there was a practical problem. How do you ship fourteen sacred cows to New York? The answer the two sides arrived at was better than shipping them. The cows would stay in Kenya. They would belong to the United States of America. The Maasai would care for them, forever, as America's herd. They are still there. The original fourteen have multiplied into dozens. Each one carries a mark carved into its ear, the outline of two towers. Their offspring fund scholarships for the children of the village. The U.S. embassy built a school there, and a water project. When the story reached America, forty thousand people wrote letters to the village. A painting of the fourteen cows hangs in the 9/11 Memorial Museum. A children's book about them became a national bestseller. Kimeli's own explanation was the shortest. To heal a sorrowing heart, give something that is dear to your own. A village that had never seen a skyscraper, that could not have found New York on a map, that owned almost nothing, gave America the one thing it valued most. Somewhere in Kenya tonight, there are cows with towers carved into their ears. They are ours. They were given to wipe our tears. 🇺🇸🇰🇪
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I want real peace. Real connection. There’s plenty of shouting already. We are meant for more. ♥️ ~ Nanea
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God bless and keep the people who did this work day in and day out.
After September 11, more than a million tons of the World Trade Center was loaded onto barges and shipped to a garbage dump on Staten Island. Then hundreds of men and women stood at conveyor belts for ten months and picked through every ounce of it by hand. They were looking for people. The place is called Fresh Kills. For fifty years it was the largest landfill in the world. It took its last barge of household trash on March 22, 2001, and shut down for good. New York was finally done with it. Five and a half months later, at two o'clock in the morning on September 12, the landfill's director got a phone call at home. He had just walked in the door. Two trucks were at the gate. They were carrying pieces of the World Trade Center. He drove back. The man who ran the dump would later say, without any drama, that if Fresh Kills had not been closed, this could never have happened. There would have been no room. The garbage would have been in the way. The site was empty. So that is where the towers went. Here is how it worked. At Ground Zero, cranes and grapplers lifted the debris into dump trucks. The trucks drove to a pier on the Hudson. There, the load went onto barges, six hundred tons at a time. The barges were towed down the harbor, past the Statue of Liberty, to Staten Island. More than fifteen hundred barges made the trip. At Fresh Kills, sanitation workers unloaded them onto a hill. And then the sorting began. The debris was mechanically screened into three sizes. Chunks bigger than eight inches. Two to eight inches. A quarter inch to two inches. Anything smaller than a quarter of an inch, the size of a fingernail, fell through the last sieve. Everything above that size went onto a conveyor belt. And along the belts stood the detectives. NYPD. FBI. Port Authority police. Medical examiners. Dressed head to toe in white Tyvek suits, in masks, in gloves, on a hill that stank of jet fuel and pulverized concrete and things nobody wanted to name. Looking down at the belt, hour after hour, as the towers rolled past them a fist-sized chunk at a time. When they saw something, they reached in and took it, and placed it in a white bucket at their feet. A wedding ring. A photo ID. A set of keys. A shoe. A piece of a person. The white buckets went to a tent that served as a morgue. The volume was beyond comprehension. In mid-September the operation was processing 1,750 tons of debris a day. By mid-October, 17,500 tons a day. Ten times more. Round the clock. The 200-acre hill was declared a federal crime scene and stayed one for ten months. A retired NYPD detective later wrote down what a shift looked like, because almost nobody outside knew it existed. You wake at 3 a.m. You get a giant coffee. You drive two hours in the dark from Orange County, through New Jersey, to Staten Island. You park at the bottom of a hill that looks like the end of the world. You put on the white suit. You go to your belt. You stand there. You look. Then you drive two hours home and do it again tomorrow. Sanitation workers pulled sixteen-hour shifts, seven days a week. One of them, a supervisor named Barry Asnes, said afterward what kept him there. We were attacked on our own soil, in the city where I was born. This was personal. The operation did not stop for weather. It did not stop for Christmas. It ran until July 2002. Ten months. By the end, the men and women on that hill had recovered thousands of human remains. Tens of thousands of personal effects. Wallets, badges, wedding bands, photographs, all cleaned and catalogued and returned to families who had nothing else to bury. When they were finished, the remaining material was placed in a 48-acre section of the landfill, a mound two hundred and twenty-five feet high, and covered. It is a park now. Many of the men and women who stood on that hill have lung disease. Asthma. Cancer. PTSD. The air they were breathing, eight and ten and sixteen hours a day, was full of the towers. Some of them have died of it. Almost nobody knows their names. Almost nobody knows the place. Mention Fresh Kills and 9/11 in the same sentence, the retired detective wrote, and most people will have no idea what you are talking about. Here is what you should know. Two thousand seven hundred and fifty-three people were murdered in those towers. Only about six in ten have ever been identified. Every one of those identifications came out of a white bucket. Every wedding ring returned to a widow. Every badge returned to a firehouse. Every fragment of bone matched to a name and buried with a headstone instead of a question mark. Somebody in a white suit, standing at a belt on a garbage dump at four in the morning, reached into the World Trade Center as it rolled past, and picked that person up, and put them in a bucket, and sent them home. They did that for ten months. Nobody applauded on the hill. There was nobody to watch. They did it anyway. 🇺🇸
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Worth sharing is this excerpt from Simon Armitage's poem about 9/11, titled "Out of the Blue": You have picked me out. Through a distant shot of a building burning you have noticed now that a white cotton shirt is twirling, turning. In fact I am waving, waving. Small in the clouds, but waving, waving. Does anyone see a soul worth saving? So when will you come? Do you think you are watching, watching a man shaking crumbs or pegging out washing? I am trying and trying. The heat behind me is bullying, driving, but the white of surrender is not yet flying. I am not at the point of leaving, diving. A bird goes by. The depth is appalling. Appalling that others like me should be wind-milling, wheeling, spiralling, falling. Are your eyes believing, believing that here in the gills I am still breathing. But tiring, tiring. Sirens below are wailing, firing. My arm is numb and my nerves are sagging. Do you see me, my love. I am failing, flagging.
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Rounding up chickens. Herding cats. It is just pushing rope.
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A nine-year-old at the lake watched me fail to skip a stone forty times, then walked over and took over my education. "You're throwing it like a spear. It's not a spear. It's a bug. It has to land flat." He was grave and patient, the way only a child teaching a grown man can be. On throw forty-one, my stone skipped five times. He screamed. He grabbed a stranger's arm and pointed. "FIVE! That was FIVE!" The shore clapped. I have taken castles with less celebration. Then he high-fived me, and I must be honest, it was my first one, and I put too much into it, and he said "whoa" and shook out his hand. I came back the next Saturday. He was waiting with a bucket. "I saved you the flat ones," he said. "I been collecting all week." A child spent his week gathering flat stones from a lake for a man he met once. I had to turn around and look at the water for a while. We skip stones every Saturday now. He brings the bucket. I bring sandwiches. He says I am his best student. I have commanded ten thousand men. No one had ever called me their best anything.
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Jesus comes to us with salvation no matter where we are! Join us this morning to receive God's good gifts, ready and prepared for you! The Divine Service begins at 9:30, with our Second Sunday potluck brunch to follow. Hope to see you there!
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A quote from the book I am reading: “That person is as hard-boiled as a 20 minute egg and has the manners of a bull in a china shop.”
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It is hot and sticky. It is damn hot. Apparently because we are in St. Louis we are “On The Devil’s Front Porch” season. Who led us here?…. Ah yes, the infamous Mister Nobody.
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Constant struggle 😂☕️🤷🏻‍♀️
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You cannot minister to others if your well has run dry.
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I need to whine. One of the worse things to happen in muggy hot summers is to have an ear infection. But having double ear infections, well we are talking about a being in a circle of hell. Especially when they have stop using ear drops to dull the pain.
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Three things: Apparently my name is hard to pronounce. Today I was “Irwin”. 🤷🏻‍♀️ People on the internet cannot do math. Simple math. Square roots are not hard. I may be walking around with 7 panda bandaids. Activated charcoal is a wonder on mosquito bites.
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erinjexplores retweeted
A mother duck and her baby are eating by the roadside when a fast car hits the baby duck and drives away. The baby duck becomes unconscious, but a kind man takes it to the hospital and saves its life.
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Great Idea!
With the kids out of school for summer this mother found a really neat way to help the kids cool off and be creative at the same time. How cool is this?
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What coffee tells me every morning!
I would like to speak to a manager, please 🥱☕️
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