delving eventually, if you're lucky, collapses into the exhaustion of presence. Nowhere to go. Nothing to do. No insight to be had.
Possible huge problem with psychospiritual journeys: Yes, there are deep structures in the labyrinth of my mind, and yes, I will have profound insights and fundamental shifts when I bring them into full awareness...
And yet...after years of self-work, I'm starting to suspect a large amount of the labyrinth is actually *procedurally generated.* Like a video game map that builds itself on the spot the further you travel across it
It would be like this sequence playing out:
1. I dive deep into the labyrinth of my mind
2. The mind goes "Oh! He's expecting to find some deep structures. Let me generate some of those that are consistent with the rest of me. Oh! He's also expecting to find some enemies there, so let me spawn some demons."
3. Lo and behold, there is more (eg) "unresolved trauma" to resolve
I think that this process is especially responsive to my motivation. So if I *want* to be in the narrative of Psychospiritual Journey, complete with Shocking Moments Of Insight? (subtext: ...so that I can procrastinate Finding A Job, Building Relationships, Pursuing My Big Scary Calling, etc) ...Well, then the mind will be happy to help. It will procedurally generate an infinite psychospiritual landscape for me to "discover"
I suspect the dynamic I describe above is why many psychospiritual delvers seem like they're just moving in circles. Yes, the mind is vast and there's tons of actually wild stuff in there to explore. Yes, imho Mind is humanity's true final frontier. But also...in some important way...you might be making it up
Finally saw "You can see everything" last night. Was promised that it would elevate the form of the documentary. TBH it solidly delivered. First half seemed ultra slow paced by that back half hooboy
tokenmaxxing was such an unbelievable triumph of marketing & propaganda this one dude was like "you should maximize your bill, you should actively consume as much of my product as you're capable of, or else you're a loser" and people listened lol
Still think that teledildonics (dildos connected to the internet; remote control) is objectively the funniest business anyone has ever imagined. Funny on so many levels; punnish names ("Sinulator") and funny for the consequences for software security/hacking
it's funny how often people's strong emotional need for a problem to get better actively interferes with it getting better. We can't fix anything until we understand what's going on ... and the desperation gets in the way of working it out
In August, the Catholic Church cancelled two funerals in Italy hours before the services because the dead men were Freemasons.
A 288 year old beef that only runs one way let's get into it 🧵
The bishops are applying their own rules in good faith. Attacking Catholics heals nothing and proves 1738 right.
The way forward is suing for peace: charity alongside parishes, open houses, and talking with a brother’s family and pastor before he dies.
