zel

i duo queue with my ex every couple months we don't talk about it. it just happens. 2am. both online. she sends the invite. or i do. neither of us acknowledges who sent it first. the discord call is 90% silence. no "how have you been." no "seeing anyone?" just pings and callouts. "flash down." "jungler bot." "nice." that's the whole conversation. here's the thing though. our 2v2 is still nasty. she knows when i'm going in before i ping it. i know her cooldowns better than the last 6 supports i've played with. we don't communicate because we don't need to. 400 games of muscle memory doesn't give a fuck about relationship status. we'll go 7-2 together. maybe 8-1 on a good night. then it's "gg" and we're offline for another 2 months. no follow up. no "we should do this more often." nothing. because we both know what this is. it's not friendship. it's not rekindling. it's not even nostalgia. it's that neither of us has found better synergy. and that's the uncomfortable truth about duo queue. you can break up with someone and still be stuck with them competitively. you can hate someone's guts and still combo perfectly in a teamfight. you can move on emotionally and still be hardstuck trying to replace what you had in game. some people have exes they still fuck. i have an ex i still duo with. honestly not sure which is worse. study the saskio way