cool

i can’t fucking do this anymore bro

i was shrieking “his viewssss HIS FUCKIN VIEWSSSSSSSS”

i was doubled over in pain felt like i was the one who’d been shot like goddamn

screaming

to love blitz without fear is to, on the daily, face the part of himself that fucked up. loving blitz demands consequence and change. and right now stolly’s not able to stand outside the fantasy. to put the journal down.

would be to banish those fantasies for good. he’ll only be ready for blitz once he’s ready to hang up his make believe. once he’s able to grasp the reality of impkind outside of how it affects his own life. once he’s disillusioned, unidealized.

stolas being unable to view blitz as a potential romantic partner anymore is indicative of his inability to release his fantasies. his fantasies kept him going for so long and to face still loving blitz despite the pain and mess, to truly face the consequences of his actions,

preach

goodnight