laura

moving to an apartment building with a complimentary espresso machine in the lobby is my favorite amenity ever omfg

tracking my macros again

i know another wave will come soon i’m getting in bed to draw on my ipad

oopsie i accidentally stayed up way too late and now im not tired anymore

trying to be better at posting art insta and i made and edited a whole reel and was so proud of it it took me 30 mins and then i realized i did the draft on my personal account so i have to redo it 😭😭😭😭 bruh maybe later i have to study

thought i wouldn’t get any morning sun in my apt facing west but the new glass skyscraper being built next to me reflects a bunch into my room in the morning it’s so nice 😊

my commute to work is one stop sign before the rest of it is stoplights + highway. sometimes in the morning i’m so tired i sit at the stop sign waiting for it to turn green

you guys it’s a christmas miracle my ex found the grinder i gave to him and returned it. the very first one i bought myself as a teenager its so nostalgic

eating 5 string cheeses at once: crazy idea fatty eating 5 mozzarella sticks: delicious i see no problem here eating 5 eggs at once: crazy idea fatty eating 5 deviled eggs (10 halves) at a party: delicious i see no problem kathy brought 4 dozen eggs and there are only 8 of us

there were two olives but i was greedy before i took the pic i’m trying to get better at letting my phone eat first with yummy meals bc i genuinely enjoy looking back at my pretty food pics

i love being a 29 year old girl in the city

the post saying dating apps put you in contact with people you never would have crossed paths with in real life fundamentally changed my brain chemistry

the less time i spend searching for lackluster connections to fill the empty space in me because i’m impatient, the more space I have to welcome the amazing connections that are supposed to come into my life naturally

what am i missing?

it makes me so ashamed to have let myself live in such filth for so long. but sitting in the shame doesn’t get me anywhere, I deserve to have a clean space and a clean body. I am not dirty because of the things that have happened to me.

i’ve also been vacuuming every day for a couple weeks now - at minimum one of the 3 zones - living/kitchen, bedroom/bathroom, and office/bathroom. I want to mop more often but that is another hurdle. baby steps. I used to not clean the floors for weeks

what made it easy for me was putting all my skincare products in a box in the closet so they don’t clutter up the visual space of my bathroom, and i can pull the box out, go through my skincare, and put it back away

been doing consistent skincare again for all of 72 hours after slacking for like a year (i was really depressed ok) and it’s annoying how much this shit works so well

it went about how i expected and i got what i needed out of it, i don’t feel like i’m questioning anything anymore. unsurprisingly he spent 1/3 of the time talking about the girl he started seeing right when we broke up i feel free. i said what i needed to