It turns out being depressed to the point it cripples you physically & mentally is real... Honestly thought i lost a part of myself but now it feels like the old onlyatroller is coming back. - Stay tuned. I dont really make posts like this but i'd like to start being transparent and not just withdraw from everyone like im used to. I've recently just come out of a really bad depression that ive probably had since i was in my late teens & just progressed over time. - Im still fixing my brain and getting whatever other mental health i have diagnosed but I hope to return to streaming eventually. Streaming is my calling in life and it sucks that i quit at my peak viewershipwise. I mean it tells that my last big clip is literally titled "onlyatroller cries on stream" lmfao. Im stronger now and will be back. Probably gonna have to start from scratch but thats okay. Ive been de-rusting on osu recently and even noticed my motor control (ig accuracy lmfao) has been better. Its crazy that mental health can affect physcial like that wtf.