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and he says it so easily. so casually. like phuwin's world doesn't stop spinning for a moment. like phuwin isn't tipping over into a void. like phuwin's heart rate isn't a racketing mess now. like his chest doesn't feel tight like there is a lack of breath centering around his heart. his gut throbs, heart kicked dumb. and phuwin's heart feels like it's ten and a hundred and a million sizes too big for his body. for the universe itself, even. because pond is still smiling at him, nothing coy or hint of obnoxious in it, at the edge of shy and so so honest. because pond is not the universe but he looks like he could fit the entirety of phuwin's soft mushed heart inside himself, keep it safe, keep it his.

pond laughs out loud, bending down to kiss the frown off of phuwin's lips. then kisses him again. then on his cheek. his other cheek. his nose. his eyes. his forehead. his lips again. deepens it until he feels phuwin responds back. he pulls after a moment, glancing down at phuwin, lips all red and swollen, eyes widened, "even if i'm not holding you to sleep, i think about holding you to sleep. i think about you all the time, you know that? only you."

phuwin glares at him, "compare me to a fluff ball and you're sleeping on the sofa, naravit." pond curls his lips downward, teasingly, "who said i was gonna say you?" phuwin pinches the lower of pond's stomach, "think again before you even try to insinuate that you're holding someone else to sleep." pond whines, laughter bubbles out of him, "oh we're getting possesive in bed now. are you gonna start biting next? marking your territory. never thought i would be into that. but i might be." "pond!"

as a matter of fact, that's exactly what pond does. in just a single breath and pond moves at the speed of light, scooping phuwin up into his arms in no time. he holds phuwin close to him, chest to chest, squeezing phuwin so tight, it knocks all of the air out of phuwin's lungs. phuwin tries his best not to hug him back because he's still very much sulking. but that only makes pond hug him even tighter. then pond pulls back, before pressing a quick kiss to his lips. "you're cute when you're jealous, phuwintang." what a fucking insane thing to say. phuwin is NOT jealous. "and you're not cute when you're delusional." "over your own cat too." "i don't know what you're talking about." "hana is hella of a fluff ball to hug to sleep, i will admit that. but you know who's even more of a fluff ball to hold to sleep?"

"hana gets all fussy when she gets squeezed between us." "well hana isn't between us now. so come here." "no." pond looks a little taken back, "no?" "hold hana. whatever." pond looks a bit confused at first but his eyes change. like something is clicking for him. "phuwin, come here." phuwin only frowns, or maybe he's pouting, he doesn't know. even makes a move to scoot farther. "no!" "phuwintang. come here before i get to you first." phuwin scoffs at that. what is pond gonna do if he doesn't? manhandle him like a sack of potatoes?

pondphuwin au where hana seems to favor pond over him. and phuwin might or might not be jealous of his own cat getting all of pond's attention. see the thing is... hana does not like to be held. in general. but especially when she's sleeping. not even by phuwin. and at first, hana never even let pond hold her. but turns out, hana was just taking her time warming up to pond because by the time she is comfortable around him, the damn cat is always on pond's lap or anywhere in close proximity to pond. particularly when she's sleeping. suddenly, she always snuggled up in pond's arms when they get ready for bed time. would squeeze her way between pond and phuwin, just to be held by pond.