Star // edtwt relapse ?

#edtwt intro (*^▽^)/★*☆♪ Looking for moots! ♡ 🦋 6teen 💙 Not new to edtwt, just new acc! 🪼 Cw 62kg and Gw 50kg 🌠 Im also astronomy lover and i like watching animes, movies and playing games so im open to new friends too! ☆ 🎇 Prorecovery 💙/🔁 to be moots ☆

Sorry guys for being inactove my ed doesnt disorder but my dchizophrenia does

I wasnt eating much for like 4days until yesterday and it was cooool

Nah nvm i feel like shit i want to drink smthng

I CAN STARVE AND THROW UP WITHOUT ANY SUSPICIONS OMG

Forced starvation i guess

And i feel that bc of my sickness i can get back to being bullemic...bc rn i have to force throwing

But on the other hand... i cant even drink water....

Im starting tk think im very lucky bc im sick so i can say that i dont want smthng to eat without a war w my family

Idea to stay starving::: whenever u want to eat watch gore so ull feel like throwing up(^_^)

Now i start 24h fast lets see how itll go

Basicqlly i ended fast at 37h and ate around 1k cals, alot but i reqlly felt that 37h after break fromf asts was too much

NOW I CAN DRINK COLA ZERO AND SMOKE OMFG !!!

ENDED MY FAST AT 37HOURS BEVAUSE OMFG IT STARTED BEING SO HARD TO NOT DO ANYTHING

IVE MADE IT TO 36H FAST!!! Now i dont stress and once ill have to ill eat fr

But pparents came back i hope it wont just end like that on 22h while i can go for more(/o＼)

22HOURS INTO MY FAST AND I HAVENT BREAK IT NOT ONLY BY NOT EATING BUT ALSO BY NOT SMOKING

THE FACT THAT I STILL CAN LOSE WEIGHT MADE ME MOTIVATWD AAAAQ

OMG I LOVW GASTING I LOVE FASTING IM NO LONGER STUCK ON 62

Im not even hungry anymore but my family keeps trying to give me food!!! (;＞_＜;)