In last2Days I had to relieve the psychological trauma the mental mechanical verbal physical chemical abuse my son endured at the hands of private mental health care workers at the So called ATUs. Assessment treatment units. I did not sleep all night last night because of it all was going on in my brain 🧠 the constant brain activity of memory’s that was the horrible torment my son went through and more then that , that can’t talk about. I thought I was able to talk through what happened to my son Stephen without crying and the feeling of helplessness but it turns out it’s as vivid as it was . How can we move forwards? How can I move forward how can my beautiful son move forward with what those people did to him? He can’t. Because if it’s hard for me whereby I can be vocal about it and I can’t forget how are my boy to do it if he can’t understand what happened to him? How can any of us who’s sons and daughters were put in those godforsaken mental hospitals move forward? How do we do it? Who’s going to stop listen and write about us? And tell it word for word of what happened to my son and yours? Will that help us? Would telling it the word for word be a good thing and will it finally help with our mental anguish? I know I went public with what was happening with my son in the last 12 years, but when you tell your story to the bbc itv or the other tv channels or newspapers it’s only a sliver of the story it’s not the whole story it’s not how our children suffered and continue to suffer with the huge trauma. It’s not how we parents can’t get past the hate. The heartbreak and the heartache that we live every f**++ day, those people who abused my child living their f**++ lives free of guilt , yet I live every day with this guilt some days are so f**++ hard to get out of bed because the guilt you are going through is so f***g overwhelming and all you want and beg is please end it now. I can’t bear anymore. When I sit near my son and he is hyperventilating and crying because he is having a flashback a memory and saying no man no man. And at that I want to go find those F*** who hurt my baby Huge apologies for my language. . @mencap_charity @CBFdn @RightfulLives @right2homeUK @StrippedOf @nikkijfox @JayneMcCubbinTV @islingtongztte @Autism @Saba_Salman