AWARD WINNING BEST SELLING AUTHOR AN FILM MAKER,ARTIST AND PHOTOGRAPHER
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GOD KNOWS
SPOKEN WORD
by MBR
The reason I do not go back to who I used to be
is because I now believe God knows me.
He always has,
but I never chose to be free.
When I suffer with depression or pain,
God knows
but I chose not to be free.
Yes, the memories remain,
but the pain, God knows,
and I can be set free.
There are many things from my past that will remain,
but they do not have to hold me captive,
because God knows,
and I can be set free.
The anger I feel about how people treat me
it’s okay,
God knows,
and I do not have to be angry,
I can be set free.
Being a victim of years of torment,
I could still hate the world,
but I found God,
and He knows
and I have been set free.
I survived for years on the street, alone.
I did not know God then,
but He knew me,
and one day I’d be set free.
Months locked in a solitary cell,
alone and empty
but I was not really alone.
God knew,
and He sent for me.
Even the years I did not believe,
that was okay,
because God knew me,
and He believed in me.
Years of hard living,
the feelings of being lost,
my life destroyed
that was the cost.
Not forgiveness,
just hate and shame.
But that’s okay
God knew me,
and He waited for me to call His name.
When that day came around,
I was on the ground,
body broken and mind weak.
And God knew,
and saw me,
and watched me weep.
Moments away from taking my life,
He saw me and knew
He had to save me again
and this old life had to come to an end.
I yelled out,
“Why me, God?
If You are real, where is love?
Why do You let me starve?
Give me an inch, Lord,
show me real, pure love once.”
And He heard me,
and He knew
this will be a real gut punch.
In an instant, what I never saw but felt
was a love I’d never known,
because He knew me.
He gave me what I needed on the floor that day
He gave me the love I had let go astray,
only because He knows.
After feeling that love,
my heart became new,
because now I know
what God knew
from Heaven above.
The years after God showed Himself to me,
my heart remains in complete loyalty.
And even in my struggles
financial, physical, or complaint
I know God sees me,
and He knows my heart.
And when I show and have faith,
He kickstarts my heart.
So from day one until now,
hardships may come,
but faith in the Lord
will get life done.
If you are in a painful life today,
just remember
God knows,
and He is waiting for you to say,
“Hey.
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HEY FOLKS, I AM IN DESPERATE NEED OF HELP.
I normally use this app to allow people to purchase my books and support my work internationally. However, I have become very unwell over the past while, and I am now in serious need of help covering transportation to medical appointments, medical devices, and possibly home care. Anything helps, and every little bit makes a difference. Every time someone buys me a coffee through this app, it helps me cover the cost of transportation, food, and other basic necessities. Right now, I have very little food, and things have become incredibly difficult. I don't want to share every detail of my personal situation, but at present, I can barely walk without assistance. I may also need to make changes to my home so it is more accessible for my medical and mobility needs. After 18 years of community service, helping others wherever I could, I now find myself in a position where I need help myself. I have no family or friends available to help me through this, and I am facing these challenges very much alone. I am tired, frustrated, and struggling to figure out how to manage everything. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me. I also want to clarify something: much of the money shown on this app is from old transactions. It wasn't raised as donations; it was money used to pay for items I sold a long time ago. However, this is the best way I currently have for people to send me a little help. I am honestly embarrassed to have to put this out there. I have spent so many years trying to be the person who helps others, and now I am the one asking for help. It's a difficult thing to accept, and there are days when I struggle with how it makes me feel about myself.
If you are able to buy me a few coffees through this app, please know that your kindness will help me get through a very difficult time. Whether it's a little or a lot, every bit helps. Please, I am asking for compassion, not judgment. I have enough on my plate right now without insults or criticism. It takes a lot for me to put my pride aside and ask for help, and I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't genuinely need it.
Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read this, shares it, asks questions, or lends a helping hand.
I've spent 18 years trying to be there for others. Right now, I could really use someone being there for me.
Thank you.
Michael Bull Roberts (MBR)I’m on @buymeacoffee. If you like my work, you can buy me a coffee and share your thoughts 🎉☕ buymeacoffee.com/MICHAELBULL…
my doc only saw on facebook what was happening to me when he got home today and he got on it right away on a sunday because he is awesome..i have to go buy a couple medical things but my meds are covered thank god
Well my great Doctor has an order in for meds to help fight these infections thank God. I am glad he is a Doctor everyday as well as a buddy an im going for ultrasound an stuff on my feet
If I can get this one healed up an the other foot is torn so that will take atleast 12 weeks then I can walk again but stupid lung infection my body is fighting to much infection
“Mixtapes and Magic” ..MBR
I miss the old days, before online and screens,
When love was a mixtape of teenage dreams.
We’d sit by the radio, hearts all aflame,
Waiting for Journey to whisper her name.
You’d hit “record” too late, miss the start,
But every song came straight from the heart.
Each lyric a message you hoped she’d see,
That every “I love you” was secretly me.
You’d hand her that tape with a trembling hand,
A greatest hits gift from your favorite band.
No emojis, no texts, just courage and sweat,
And the hope she’d rewind what she wouldn’t forget.
You’d wait all night for the phone to ring,
Talking for hours ‘bout everything.
Till her mom picked up, said “That’s enough!”
You’d laugh it off, though goodbyes were tough.
Those weekends away in cabins and cars,
Felt like adventures beneath the stars.
We had Atari, we had Pong,
But love was the rhythm that played all along.
Now love’s an app with a swipe and a ping,
No slow dance songs, no promise rings.
We ghost and scroll, we like and we type,
But the spark feels lost in all the hype.
So let’s bring back the tapes, the hiss, the charm,
The nervous glance, the racing arm.
When Phil Collins or Poison spoke your soul,
And every power ballad made you whole.
For not all my life was pain or wrong,
I still hum those tunes, I still sing along.
The 80’s may fade, but their love stays true
I’d rewind it all, just to fall like I used to.
ya i dont have anybody here i keep two friends and they live far away. i likely should be in a hospital but then nothing gets done here an i go further backwards
ya im not worried about waiting i just dont want to be there without a friend because of cptsd issues and i have nobody to go with me
ill never get in an abulance unless im already out cold on the floor they put me in then lol..i have some cptsd issues from when i was 16 locked in a hospital with adult offenders that raped an tortured me for 11 months after i got out i have never been able to go into a hospital without somebody with me to distract my mind. i only have two pals here they are both out of town